Recently, troubling about the Industrial training to Singapore. It cannot denied that working in Singapore is the biggest wish in my life since the hope of furthering my studies there vanish two years before. So, i really will try my best to find whatever chance which can lead me there.
However, now the market situation there is not as bright as b4. From the news, heard abt many retrenchment happen in a clip of eyes recently. Moreover, by calling few company over there and got the respond of them, i know that my chance is getting slim and slim. But, should i really give up the chance of working there?? My ambition, my further career, my working environment... all of these will be gone if i give up in this moment...
Sometime, i may keep blaming my parents that do not give the chance to me to do something, such as finding job oversea. Now, surprisingly, my dad din even ask a word about my industrial training instead, leave the matter from head over toes to me. But, now is my problem instead. I can really handle the matter and sucessfully work there? That is my problem, i should not blame anyone if i really cannot work there....
Until now, i still cannot overcome the tongue-tied probelm. During the calling to those singapore company. I even cannot speak a fluent Mandarin, let alone speak english (i think it doesn't leave a very good image to the phone receiver regarding this tongue-tied fellow). Can't really i talk properly? Why would i be lack of confident like this? When can it be totally solved? .................................................................................................................................. All of these, is my own problem actually. Nobody can really help me, and only me myself can overcome the problem...
信心，使自己找的。评价，是别人给的。
没有信心，再高的评价也是徒然。
满怀信心，再低的评价，会成为下个高评价的垫脚石。
i always believe about this..... i hope i can do as wat i believe...
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
About myself
Well, this is my 1st time to create my blog after seeing sooo many frens have thier own blogspot... and... i am not going to open it for public and this blog spot could only be a place for me to express my feeling and drop down my whatever memories, no matter bitter or sweet memories.
I used to have a habit to write the diary, but only for particular experience such as The Life in National Service, The Part-time Life in Genting, The Down to village Experience and so on. During the experience, i will drop down what i had experience and what my feeling is towards certain situation. And this really leave me a good memories. I will cherish the pals who r alwis by my side to accompany me along those experience. Friendship forever pals!!
Erm... about myself. I can considered as "handicapped" people... haha but no need to feel pitiful to me lar. Actually i am born to be tougue-tied. I cannot speak well and fluently like u since i was child. And so that, i have become the laughing-stock among my freind and even my even my teachers. I have been undergone operation towards my tongue when i was 7 or 8 years old. Althought the condition is getting better now, but the problem still there.
Althougth i am a tongue-tied ppl but i have never feel depress actually. Erm... actually i also not very sure whether i am really so strong enough to resist those laughing or not. When they are trying to laugh me and act as what i said, i will pretend not to hear abt it.. but in the deep of my heart, i think..... i do care!! I jus don wan to face thier laughing and i don know wat expression can i use to reply thier laughing.. angry? not my style... happy? crazy ar... sad? not worth for it... so i rather pretend not to hear abt it...
As i grow older and older, i have a strong idea that my life is not only like the state now.. hence, i keep trying to learn new thing, no matter comunication skill, althought i am defect in advance, but i won't care the people sight and keep on learning. So, sometime, if i am full of confidence, i can actually speak well especially on the stage. However, when sometime i am lack of confidence, my speaking really like suck~~ So, i hope i can keep on fighting to my illness and hopefully i can really speak like a normal people and won't trouble around this problem anymore....
I used to have a habit to write the diary, but only for particular experience such as The Life in National Service, The Part-time Life in Genting, The Down to village Experience and so on. During the experience, i will drop down what i had experience and what my feeling is towards certain situation. And this really leave me a good memories. I will cherish the pals who r alwis by my side to accompany me along those experience. Friendship forever pals!!
Erm... about myself. I can considered as "handicapped" people... haha but no need to feel pitiful to me lar. Actually i am born to be tougue-tied. I cannot speak well and fluently like u since i was child. And so that, i have become the laughing-stock among my freind and even my even my teachers. I have been undergone operation towards my tongue when i was 7 or 8 years old. Althought the condition is getting better now, but the problem still there.
Althougth i am a tongue-tied ppl but i have never feel depress actually. Erm... actually i also not very sure whether i am really so strong enough to resist those laughing or not. When they are trying to laugh me and act as what i said, i will pretend not to hear abt it.. but in the deep of my heart, i think..... i do care!! I jus don wan to face thier laughing and i don know wat expression can i use to reply thier laughing.. angry? not my style... happy? crazy ar... sad? not worth for it... so i rather pretend not to hear abt it...
As i grow older and older, i have a strong idea that my life is not only like the state now.. hence, i keep trying to learn new thing, no matter comunication skill, althought i am defect in advance, but i won't care the people sight and keep on learning. So, sometime, if i am full of confidence, i can actually speak well especially on the stage. However, when sometime i am lack of confidence, my speaking really like suck~~ So, i hope i can keep on fighting to my illness and hopefully i can really speak like a normal people and won't trouble around this problem anymore....
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